A Letter to my father
- Maitha Alhabtari
- Sep 24, 2023
- 2 min read
Dear Father,
I hope this letter finds you well, wherever you may be.
I know it's been years since we last spoke and that you've moved on without me.
However, I couldn't help but write, as I wanted you to know,
All that I have accomplished without the guidance of a father to show.
Growing up, I often wished things were different,
That you were there to cheer me on, to be proud, to be piquant.
But as time passed, I realized you weren't coming back,
And that dream was never meant to be mine, just another hack.
Despite living my life without your guidance or care,
I've managed to reach heights beyond my imagination, to excel without you being there.
I am going to horse riding lessons and diving classes you never knew I attended,
And secured a job that made me feel achieved and splendid.
But even with my achievements, there is a part of me that mourns,
A part of me that wishes you were around to see how much I have grown.
Like when I got my first paycheck, I wanted to show it off to you with pride,
Or when I passed my driving test, without you, it felt like more than just a ride.
Father, you may not know the woman I have become,
The person you helped shape, but chose to run.
But because of your absence, I learned to be strong and fight,
To pick myself up when I fell, and hold my head up high with all my might.
I know it may seem like I'm doing wonderful without you,
And to some extent, it's true, but there are moments when I feel so blue.
It saddens me to think, that the one thing I wanted the most,
Was never meant to be granted, just an unattainable ghost.
One day, I hope we can reconcile and build the bond we never had,
To fill in the gaps that were missing, the moments that were said but unsaid.
But until that day comes, I'll continue to strive,
And keep on progressing in life with aspirations to survive.
With a saddened heart and a tear or two,
This is my farewell to the father I never knew.
Remembering you with love and grace,
I hope this letter brings you a small trace of solace.
Sincerely,
Your absence made daughter.
This one hit a lil too close to home lowkey